I don't know how much I should write on here but life has been getting crazy for me. I have been busy and keeping busy with summer reading, friends, events with church communities, etc. I haven't even seen my dad in about a month, I really do miss him, I know I am a horrible daughter.
Things have been pup and down with my friend and I. We have been hanging out at camp and church events but not really communicating. Last night I was about to call quits, but his persistence kept me going I guess, and the fact I don't want it to end. I like him to much. I have been hurt before but it hurts more with the thought of not having in my life, even as just a friend.
We been slacking on praying together, I believed we missed to days this week, which sucks but we were babysitting one night and I got mad at him and then the other I got scared about something, so that was my fault. Also he got a job! Now his schedule will be different and with school coming up we probably wont hang out much but I hope and think it will be a good thing for each other, especially with not being boyfriend and girlfriend it will probably make us step back a little and breathe. I will probably be bored now but school will keep me busy and I'm hoping I'll reconnect with school friends and hang out with them more, I'm a bad friend.
So now I think we had established to take steps back, I am honestly still confused where we stand. I told him lets give it time to think about. I still have hope and I believe so does he. I think he said he was willing to wait and hold on, that made me feel loved. It made me not want to give up too, and honestly I don't I just don't know if I can do the change, if I can handle it. I don't think I'm good enough for him, I'm too much baggage and feel like a little kid in need of a babysitter now.
Now to add more stress I have a book and half to finish and 3 reading assignments to do in less than 2 weeks :o See ya!
~Staying Strong.
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